Soul-searching

"To whom much is given, much is expected"

2010-01-23T17:47:00.004+08:00

Life has been very exciting! I am always learning and i have never apperciated my life as much as i do now. I am less kiasu and more people centred. i think. Teaching primary school students always leaves me with a memorable event. The girls are so appreciative and cute. the way they look forward to my lessons, makes me wonder why i didn't when i was a student. I also came to realise that there are many studnets with learning disabilities like autism, dyslexia and so on.. i have seen 4 of such cases. Hard to handle, but i really want to make a difference in their life. One of those girls name is Alicia. When i first saw her i taught she has attitude problem, but slowly i came to realise that was autistic. Soon, i made good relationship with her. She has graduted now, and i really miss her.

This is one of the reason why i appreciate life more than ever. I thank god that he gave me all that i needed. At this moment, i also remember what my teachers used to say "To hwo much is give, much is expected" I understand, much is expected from me as i am blessed with much.

After a long time

2010-01-23T17:41:00.002+08:00

Hi to all who have been still coming to my blog. i know it is dead. trying to make it lively again. Thank you so much to all ym Pei Hwa students who still miss me.. i miss u all too. Zhi Kai, have you changed school? i hope you are doing well. Rashidah, Sherry, Clifton and to all those who have tagged thank you so much :) i am glad that u still remember me. Hope that all of you are doing good in sec 2. May god bless you with good health, wealth, peace, results, and friends.

I am on teaching course now. Quite hard for me to visit you people, but i will do one day. alrite?

2009-08-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

I am glad that you have recovered completely n that you are doing what you like... may god's blessing be alwats be upon you... miss you:)

2009-08-21T11:48:00.002+08:00

I miss teaching in Pei Hwa Secondary! will always remember all of you ")

Interview was a success

2009-06-06T13:39:00.002+08:00

If you dare, post ur name! chickens...

Anyway, interview is over =] glad that it was a good one.

Update...

2009-05-31T22:55:00.002+08:00

I was ******* irritatated by my stupid, idtiotic brother today for nuts! only god knows whether he has a brain. **** God, please give me patience to deal with such people. After which it is my mum. another naggy.... oh my! now i understand why my students appreciate me so much... i never liked nagging at them!

Recent update of what is going on in my life!

1. My grandfather passed away

2. My teaching life has eneded temporarily

3. Back to studying soon. (I don't miss it at all)

29/5/09 was my last day in Pei Hwa Secondary! Students never failed to make me smile at any circumstance. will be having a cycling and BBQ with them soooon... looking forward to see them again.... YEah! and Ms Shauna Ng took plenty of random shots of me! will put them up when she sends me the photos...

Reaching 1

2009-02-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

this is my sweetie pie.. haha..my nephew has really grown up..reaching one year old soon... still thinking of what to buy for his birthday,. so if u have any idea do tell me alrite? this pic was taken at Jurong east IMM... amazed when he actually tried to drive... kidz nowadays are SMART!

Moral Courage

2009-02-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

27th Feb Friday - - a remarkable day for me. I actually caught 2 boys smoking in the school toilet... this happened when i was conducting lesson for one of the class... an the tiolet was just beside my class.. the kids could smell the smoke, so i had to investigate this.... then i made my visit to the boys toilet hoping that there is nothing obsene... lol... and i caught the 2 big, grown boys smoking.. really upset. had to bring up the case to the discipline comm.. it required a lot of moral courage and i felt sorry for the boys coz i think they had to pay summon and go through detention... and one of the boys is actually my student... i take him for Geography.. so really sad...

21st Year :)

2009-02-28T23:04:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was my parents weeding day! it is the 21st year... bro and myself actually ordered a pizza for them and my dad actually made a photo montage with some photos.. he knows that i miss my friends a lot :) thank you papa!

Missing all my friends... especially Cindy, Seok Hoon, Yan Bing ,Zhong Ri, Serene, Priya and Banaser... God bless you all.

Staffroom

2009-02-28T22:48:00.003+08:00

this is Ruva and her mini mini toons... haha...she is very cute... :)

the following photos are what that adds up some spice to the life that i am having...lol... that is Ruva and me in the staffroom... Ruva has been my buddy and mentor sinc ethe first day that i have stepped into Pei Hwa...her bubbly character has never failed to brighten up my day. thank you Ruva! after looking at the pics i realised that i wear too much of white! lol.

Recalling and Praying for the best!

2009-02-28T22:36:00.003+08:00

Am so tired and exhausted after marking scripts, preparing lesson, and setting papers..oh my! please give me more energy...

Managed to go out with Re-co last saturday.. went to bakerzin (where Cindy works) had a good chat, shopping and food. All of us doing different things...Lewis came from NS, Pei Qi working as admin, Yang Yi is baby Siting, Timothy is a life-guard, Wee lin is fighting a battle and I am teaching. Though all of us are doing different things our aim, wish and goal are the same... we hope for the same bright future. looking ahead for March 6... it is not really going to determine our life but it will definitely have an impact on whatever decision that we are going to make! so all the est to all of us... hope for the best ya!

Here comes some of the photos that we took...

2009-02-10T19:56:00.002+08:00

Hi all

Happy new year, and Happy CNY...Sorrry for not updating :)

It has been a super long time since I actually updated my blog. Really very busy now...such that i have no time to reflect on what I am doing and have been doing. therefore, i have decided to take some time off from scool work and do some reflection inorder to understand tings more clearly and have a bigger view.

Firstly, have been teaching in a Secondary school for the past 2 months and I would it has not been easy. Especially handling rowdy students in the upper sec and super childish kids in te lower sec... switching modes between the 2 levles is really hard sometimes... Besides that, all the disciplinary measures that we have to take is really straining...

Besides that, the real challenge is Teaching... twithing the 50 mins there is a lot to be done... and i am always a little to aambitious.. so i always face lot of disappointement in the class and thus start scolding and screaming... Reflecting pon it, I think i should reduce my expectation their level and reduce my naggings... I will do my best... Meeting deadlines is another VERY BIG ISSUE on my list! LOL. Don't really wish to elaborate more here... but i will do reflection up on my brain. Alrite that is all for now! Will upload some pictures of my students when i finf the time again... kudoz people.

BOOCHA

2008-12-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday PRIYA and JAMES and Banaser... finally you are 19... haha... opps..

Aniwae gathering with Priya and Serene today was so great and fun... it has been such a long time since we last met... hope you guys like the Birthday cum christmas presents... have a meery merry christmas k? and god bless ya! waiting for more and more meet ups and photo taking sessions... haha... well that was the funniest and funnest part of our gathering!

Oh yes James! i still owe u your birhtday present.. wait till i get to see u k?

and yes i bought a new phone on this special day... so this day is really a special day..haha.. i am getting crazy... arghhh got to work tomorrow... goodness... so irritating to work when my whole family will be at home... 324$@%$&*##!%

to the random person who played with me refrigerator i have no idea who you are... thanks for playing with it... i thought it was dying...

WISHING EVERY SOUL IN THIS EARTH A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2008-12-23T19:39:00.001+08:00

WORK - EAT - SLEEP = MY ROUTINE
sob sob sob :'(

Safe Home!

2008-12-06T13:09:00.002+08:00

Am back, Am breathing, Am alive...

i miss Cindy, Zhong Ri, Yan Bing and Seok Hoon!
I felt so good talking to them yesterday... it has been ages since i last saw them la... aniwaes, now that i am back i can meet them soon... but wait... there is something called work... haiz... this is so irritating...

James called yesterday... just on time.. there will be a 5B2 gathering finally... haha...
i havent call priya and serene... they should be having their exams...

I wish...i wish...i wish... nvm i am not going to say it here...

okay when i am free and not so tired... i will post a better post.. lol...

Memories...

2008-11-16T20:30:00.005+08:00

After a long time.. i browsed through many photos and many hand-made cards...It brought back lots of memories... Especially the small but life touching notes written by my friends in 8th council... Indeed, they are precious gifts... i have treasured them and will continue to... The life that i have shared with friends and teachers in PJC has opened my eyes! The small little things they always do has never failed to make me smile... To have to leave PJC is... really sad... cant really express myself into words... but i know that the memories gained in PJC will always stay close to my heart!

A post in Tamil...

2008-11-15T22:59:00.003+08:00

இன்று என் நாள் மிகவும் நன்றாக சென்றது... வாழ்கையில் பல விஷயங்களை இலண்டேருந்தாலும் பலவற்றை கற்றுகொண்டேன்... என்னுடைய வெற்றிக்கு காரணமாய் இருந்த அனைவருக்கும் என்னுடைய மனமார்ந்த் நன்றிகள்... மேலும் நான் வாழ்வில் வெற்றி பெற நீங்கள் துணை இருப்பீர்கள் என்று நம்புகிரைன்... நன்றி

Flying in the air...

2008-11-15T20:20:00.005+08:00

I am so eddicted to face book now! lol... don't know... Mrs Ali - my secondary school geography teacher has called me down to teach in her school which is at Sengkang..I am very glad that she offered me such a rare opportunity. It has always been my passion to be geog teacher and i am going to take this oppt as a stepping stone. Hope that this experience would gain me lots of knowledge... Once again thank you so much Mrs Ali..

Cleaned my huge masses of notes and books. placed some aside to be donated back to the college. Would be keeping the rest for my future reference. they are my precious resources... My table is no longer as messy!

Aniwae i have given appointment to Priya, Pova and my sisters so am very busy planning where to go... It has been really a longggg time since i last visited the zoo, birdpark and East Coast... so might be going down there...

My cousin sister gave me a call from China... so sweet of her! she is in the home stay programme. She called just to ask about my 'A' levels... take care my darling sister... god bless you. Have ample rest and miss u dear! :) see you soon!

Lonely....

2008-11-14T11:15:00.004+08:00

Am extremely bored...
no school...

no stress...
no studying...

no consultations...

no essays...

no books...

no lectures...

no teachers...

no council...

no fun...

no life...

so bored...

so lonely...

so stupid...

so irritating... :(

so i have decided to clean my house, pray and get to my sisters place at Bukit Gombak...Am really missing books and studying... infact, studying without exam pressures will be such a joy... Aniway, i applied for many many jobs yesterday. including the zoo and birdpark.. no reply from anyone yet! sob sob... i wish i can get a job as soon... Cant call any of my friends from PJC until next Friday... if i do they will hate me...so i will just wait for them to end their paper asap and then i can party with them.. hahaha... okay i am getting crazy (consequence of loneliness)

It's over...

2008-11-13T14:53:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone!

This few months have been really stressful and this would be the last and final post abot 'A' Levels - i hope so... well i ended exams today.. no more exams for atleast aother 8 months... finally..haha... okay here comes the update about the recent papers....

Economics paper 1 was much much better compare to paper 2. Paper 2 was extremely disgusting! Human geography was manageable except for the Urban DRQ...

Saw Mr Manikan and Ms Usha Kumar after paper... i was really happy... they could see that... haha.. messaged Mr Koh after that... he proposed to have a reco outing...yea! Ms Leong messaged in the noon asking about the paper...

Updated my resume and applied for some jobs... it is quite shitty looking for jobs... i realised!

I am suppose to go out with Priya... most probably next week...

All the best for all those who are still doing your papers... especially Cindy, Yan Bing, Seok Hoon and Zhong Ri, Wilfred, Yang Yi and Timothy!

Wait till my next update.. i shall continue looking for job!

2008-11-07T20:03:00.003+08:00

a rainbow ripped in half

at two ends of the sky

Towards the end!

2008-11-07T19:12:00.005+08:00

Reaching the last lap of 'A' levels... left with Econs and human geog paper... and that will be my last few days in PJC... very sad that i have to leave a place which i was so bonded to... but i have to... the same feeling i had when i left CTSS... i was one of the very few who went to PJC... initially, felt isolated and troubled but got better later... i hope the next stage of my life would just be as good....

Leaving
Actually leaving is a necessity

I leave many times

And much oftener than usual

Most birds leave to warmer places

I go the other way around

In isolation

In an island of isolation

It may be cold

But I am the only bird in there

It is such a nice feeling

Being one and only

Being isolated

Like an experiment

Life, an experiment.

RIC S. BASTASA

It is all about...

2008-10-26T10:03:00.002+08:00

hi... i promised myself not to touch the computer for another 18 days (till my 'A' lvls are over) but just couldn't control my hands...

Just feeling very normal... exams are 3days away... Tamil Literature will be the first to start... i hope it gives me some moral for me to continue with the rest of the paper... lol... okay aniwae, i wanted to update about my uncle who was identified as a cancer patient somewhere near August... was a disastrous news at first... but later we learnt how to cope with it....

I lost my grandma at the age of 1. My grandma was also a cancer patient... Medical technologies were not as advanced and developed as it is now. So, i hope with better technology now my uncle will really recover soon... it is really heart breaking to see a strong man like him to go thru such torture. the chemotheraphy that he has been going thru has made him loose all his strength, energy, and hair... I pray for his fast recovery!

The effect of financial turmoil is experienced in almost every country... is impt for all of us to remain as humane and help each other out of this tsunami... Glad that countries are werking together solve the problems...

SELFLESS LOVE...

2008-10-17T19:45:00.002+08:00

My wife called, 'How long will you be with that newspaper? Will you come here and make your darling daughter eat her food?I tossed the paper away and rushed to the scene. My only daughter Sindu looked frightened; tears were welling up in her eyes. In front of her was a bowl filled to its brim with curd rice.

Sindu is a nice child, quite intelligent for her age.I cleared my throat, and picked up the bowl. 'Sindu, darling, why don't you take a few mouthful of this curd rice? Just for Dad's sake, dear.Sindu softened a bit, and wiped her tears with the back of her hands. 'Ok, Dad. I will eat - not just a few mouthfuls, but the whole lot of this. But, you should...' Sindu hesitated. 'Dad, if I eat this entire curd Rice, will you give me whatever I ask for?''Promise'.

I covered the pink soft hand extended by my daughter with mine, and clinched the deal. Now I became a bit anxious. 'Sindu dear, you shouldn't insist on getting a computer or any such expensive items. Dad does not have that kind of money right now. Ok?''No, Dad. I do not want anything expensive'. Slowly and painfully, she finished eating the whole quantity. I was silently angry with my wife and my mother for forcing my child to eat something that she detested.After the ordeal was through, Sindu came to me with her eyes wide withexpectation.

All our attention was on her.'Dad, I want to have my head shaved off, this Sunday!' was her demand. 'Atrocious!' shouted my wife, 'A girl child having her head shaved off? Impossible!' 'Never in our family!' My mother rasped. 'She has been watching too much of television. Our culture is getting totally spoiled with these TV programs!''Sindu darling, why don't you ask for something else? We will be sad seeing you with a clean-shaven head.' 'Please, Sindu, why don't you try to understand ourfeelings?' I tried to plead with her.'Dad, you saw how difficult it was for me to eat that Curd Rice'. Sindu was in tears. 'And you promised to grant me whatever I ask for. Now, you are going back on your words. Was it not you who told me the story of King Harishchandra, and its moral that we should honor our promises no matter what?'It was time for me to call the shots. 'Our promise must be kept.' 'Are you out your mind?' chorused my mother and wife. 'No. If we go back on our promises, she will never learn to honor her own.

Sindu, your wish will be fulfilled.'With her head clean-shaven, Sindu had a round-face, and her eyes looked big and beautiful.

On Monday morning, I dropped her at her school. It was a sight to watch my hairless Sindu walking towards her classroom. She turned around and waved. I waved back with a smile. Just then, a boy alighted from a car, and shouted, 'Sinduja, please wait for me!' What struck me was the hairless head of that boy. 'May be, that is the in-stuff', I thought.'Sir, your daughter Sinduja is great indeed!' Without introducing herself, a lady got out of the car, and continued,' that boy who is walking along with your daughter is my son Harish.

He is suffering from... Leukemia.' She paused to muffle her sobs. Harishcould not attend the school for the whole of the last month. He lost all his hair due to the side effects of the chemotherapy. .. He refused to come back to school fearing the unintentional but cruel teasing of the schoolmates. 'Sinduja visited him last week, andpromised him that she will take care of the teasing issue. But, I never imagined she would sacrifice her lovely hair for the sake of my son! Sir, you and your wife are blessed to have such a noble soul as your daughter.'I stood transfixed and then, I wept. 'My little Angel, you are teaching me how self-less real love is!'The happiest people on this planet are not those who live on their own terms but are those who change their terms for others & inspire others...

Farewell...

2008-10-14T01:08:00.000+08:00

Never felt as such before...

never so quiet

never so breathless

never so gloomy

never so heavy-hearted

never so depressed

As i go through another farewell... i thank PJC for the wide range of opportunities offered... i have matured and grown under the wisdom gained... i have learnt to forget and forgive... and i have learnt to appreciate and understand others more...

Besides the over-whelming academic knowledge that i have gained, i have also created many new friendships and offcourse, there are some bitter memories with some... most importantly the days in council has earned me inexorable EQ and new bonds - the thing which i appreciatae the most in my live...

As i leave my foot-print in PJC, through legacies such as patio, i would like to thank all the teachers who have helped me out all the way... u didn't give up on me and always motivated me to move on... and till the last moment u will always be there... i know... thank u so much...

i have never regretted every single moment that i have spent in PJC... it will be one of the most precious moments and it will always be indelibly attached in my heart... as i leave u and continue my live with a new begining, i would like to thank u for all that u have done for me... thank u! :')

i will miss u!

Finally recovering...

2008-09-25T18:24:00.000+08:00

hi guys and gurls!

I just recovered from a very bad fever, diahorea and vomiting... was really bad! Nothing to do with the China milk... just my body! Stuck to bed for 2 days... and yes that was why i wasnt online for the past few days...

and yes back to the China milk issue! i feel that it is very scandolous... it might me an issue arised due to jealousy and corruption... well China has to face it! but meanwhile whoever is creating such problems should also have some heart to realise that they might create poverty in many families who depend on the industries for work... Aniwae, it also the industries fault in using melamine in its food products especially the baby milk... is it why mothers are encourged to breast feed? haha... traditional method of living has proven to be the best once again!

Moving away from the GP style of blogging! I wonder what will happen in school tomorrow! get back papers? normal lesson? go through paper? haiz...

Singapores inflation has dropped to 6.4% and expected to drop to 2.6% by next year! is it a far fetched dream? or has the govt implemented policies to achieve this? will someone enlighten me on this? i am weak in econs!

okay that is all for now! i got to eat more and more medicines... till the next update take care :)

2008-09-20T13:15:00.000+08:00

Hey finally Prelims is over and left with my final 'A' levels... so fast... haha... okay i just came back from a self-initiated cip by 8th student council...it is a leadersip talk and exchange session at Unity Sec with their council...was extremely fun and a good way to share what i have learnt from being a councillor... we played dotch ball and lewis made the super long talk... but offcourse he made sense...for the final part we played our invest video and the students were quite astonished...Unity teachers commented our work and one of the teachers said that he can so much passion in us and hope that his students can also be like us (so proud :P ) yeah it was very satisfying and i hope that the students learnt many useful tips from the discussion and hope that their journey in council will be as fruitful as ours.

I recently started a facebook acoount and i realised it is so damn addictive... gosh... what a wrong timing for me to do things... Those with facebook account please do add me... i very lazy to go find u... thank u! lol

3 more days to as per usual school :(

9 more days to Hari Raya and end of fasting month... yesh :)

39 more days to 'A' Levels... sob sob :"(

49 more days to Holidays... :P

Till further update... take care ya!

Dedicated to 5B2!

2008-09-17T17:23:00.001+08:00

As requested by James...
Here comes a post dedicated for 5b2 (my sec sch class)

Well i have been part of 5b2 for 3 years... and with some for 5 years...t was a impossible class initially...but later it turned to be the class admired and loved by most... i guess... but aniwae i love and miss it a lot. The moments we treasured together can never be forgotten... our first class bonding was at labrador park-- also known as the sec 2 camp....was quite afraid then to be in a class dominated by boys and pathetic 4 girls.

It didnt turn out to be so bad actually... though there were some crappie incidents...

James, Wei Hao, Weng Cheong, Joseph, Jing Zhe, Joseph are few of the guys who used to be very irritating, sprak up quarels and scold vulgarities... but now they have certainly changed for the better... i wish them all the best in what ever they do...

The usual stares exchanged by James and Jing Zhe.. which will end up in chair and table fight... haha... gross...
There is one particular event that Priya and myself will always recall about and laugh at... it is the dya before teachers day... Priya's bear committed suiceide on the fan and she started to cry... haha... Wei Hao and the rest of the monkeys was responsible for its pathetic death... haha... Wei hao apologized later...

Besides the naughty ones, they were also some funny and as well as the irritating ones... that includes Charles, Daryl, Wei Ming, Ramzi, Vicente, Kong wee the apple tree, and francis... i can never forgot them for all the remarakable memories they left me wif... the never stopping jokes abt me.. lol... clearly remember the kind of facial expressions they used to give and the way they used to tease Priya and myself...

Now i seriously got to talk about one person whom i was forced to sit with for 2 long years... it is none other than VICENTE... haha... He has been my "parter" since sec 1.... always borrowing stationary and copying my homework...he used to be overweight in sec 1 and 2 and somehow managed to loose all his fats... haha...and yes...he always commented about all the pretty girls that passed by him and i think he still does... haha...but in sec 3,4,and5 he changed a lot... a different person... no longer siting next to me but still disturbing me togehter with his best frens James and Jing Zhe... will never forget the times he helped me out with my sucky DnT skils.. haha... thank u vicente... i hope u are still in Sgp and not in Phillppines...

Now about the rest of the classmates whom i have yet to mention... Jolene (chairperson), Priya, Hoi Yan, Poa Yin and Enkai... they were only few without any mental complications... haha...they always used to compete with me.. a healthy competition though... and jolene was always the one getting bullied by the guys... but she was a very nice person too..

Another incident that will always stay close to my heart.. is when the class gave me a supirse birthday party on my birthday... they were so cute la...before the party, James was trying to irritate me to the best of his ability by erasing whatever notice i wrote on the board...but somehow i didnt get angry.. haha... Mr tan and Mr chng was also part of the organising committee... thnk u so much people.. it was the most memorable birthday i have ever had... really really thnk u...

A class filled with colours, joy, fun, jokes, laziness, vulgarities, competition, quarrels, tears, care and love..this entry will not be complete if i dont mention about the teachers crossed our lives and the last class gathering at Aloha chalet...
Mr Chng(form teacher), Mr Eugene Tan (co-form teacher and english), Ms Geraldyn Chen(Physics), Mr Murali(chemistry), Mrs Ali, Ms Rachel Lim and Mrs Rajah(Humanities), Mrs Abdul (DNT) and the art teachers as well... well this few teachers have been very patient with us ... some cried and left the class... some scolded us badly... some punished... some joined us... I would say Mr Tan was one of the teacher who has influenced the class most to be a better place.. thnk u teachers...

And yes after our 'O' levels 5b2 also had a class chalet at Aloha together with Mr tan and Ms Chen joined us in the second day... wait... the journey doesent ends ther.. there was another gathering at Ms Lim's place at bukit panjang... thnk u Ms lim for the great food offered... haha...

well that is not the end of the journey of 5b2.. though we are leading seperate lives at different institutions we still have a place in each others heart and the memories will always stay with us no matter how far we go...

till the next update take care yah..

From the soul...

2008-09-12T21:27:00.005+08:00

This poem is dedicated to priya, serene, cindy, yan bing, seok hoon, zhong ri, pova, banaser and aminah! Thank you so much for always being a part of me and helping me out thru out all the darkest moment of my life... i am so thankful to god for giving me such friends... love u people :)

A diffcult goodbye

We shared...laughs of joy,

moments of pain,

tears of happiness!

We earned...care,

understanding,

as well as a place,

in the heart of one another!

We talked...about our dreams,

about being best friends for life,

just about everything imaginable!

When in trouble...

you helped with all your strength,

strength from your love,

love from your warm heart!

When asked why...

you simply smiled,

you questioned back

" What are friends for?"

We walked right beside each other

as we felt a friendly breeze,

one that I shall never forget!

No matter where you'll be,

you'll always be in my heart,

just promise me that

I'll be in yours!

You are an angel,

who walked into my life!

I would hate to say goodbye

because it seems too soon

But then again we never will

since a part of us

are always with each other..

happy... 2 papers down... haha:)

2008-09-12T20:50:00.000+08:00

yippie... i somehow feel very happy today... so i am here to blog... lol... aniwae my tamil paper 1 was not any easy...lol... such a irony rite.. happy vs difficult paper... :P
I so wana go Thailand to do community service together with YEC...i hope it will be exicitng...

Aniwae i read this poem on the net a few days ago and i feel the same way as wat is written in the poem...

Now what
Too many memories filling my mind

All those tears and all the cries

Looking at the pictures they didn't change

But the people sure have

by Alison Ellisat 2008-04-28

2008-09-09T20:24:00.000+08:00

study study study study....
exams exams exams exams...
oh my i am only down with 3 papers for now... that includes GP, Physical Geography and Mathematics... and finally i am having a day break...
GP was disappointing because after so much of revision and remedials i still couldnt write a proper essay... all the essay titles were so hard... oh my... eventually i managed to do one.. but still very sad... sob sob

Physical Geography as usual not enough time to absorb all the content and complete the essays o time... A few omg question were staring at me... sianz...

Mathematics... just like Gp i spent alot of time on it... but i guess is insufficient to do well... but the paper was normal not very very difficult or easy.. just as usual...

Hope the upcoming papers - Economics, Human Geography and Tamil Lit will do some justice to the unusual effort and time that i am putting into revisions.. pray hard...(the last resort that i have)

My uncle and sis Rizwanah just went thru operation... i hope they will get well soon... and be as active as they used to be... i almost cried when i talked to my sis on the phone... she is really sweet.. take care people...

Cindy chua is extremely weak with her stomach upset and bad health.. i wish her well... and hope that it doesent affects her prelim.. jia you cindy...i will pray for u to get well soon...

My nephew is getting more and more cute as days passes... he is just too adorable... i miss him so much! :)

Okay i am very tired after maths paper... so going to sleep soon... wait till my next post which should be coming up almost immediately after prelims... :P

Random...haha :)

2008-09-02T11:02:00.000+08:00

hello

as promised i am updating my blog... lol... yest was extremely unpoductive only managed to do GP and maths... hope to do more today. Going to je library soon.. hope i dont bump onto any pj... lol.. it is unlikely :( received a card from one of my long lost friend yesterday.. so touched and really happy... hope or relationship will last long. i taught my dad spelling yesterday... lol...it is quite shocking to see a old man catching up real fast... he told me that is the the will that matters and not the age. i do agree with him... jia yo papa...

My cousin sis rizwanah still suffereing... i pray for her to get well real soon.

Exams in 5 days...i am really stressed! haiz...

Booo....

2008-09-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

I have plans to do lots of things anf yet to do anything... lol...

came to my aunts place today to bring my nephew to the clinic... so half my plan is gone...

typing this at my aunts place also...

the weather is very funny today... sun + drizzles but no rainbow

maybe i shld go back and start doing my revision...

okay i will... take care and will update soon :)

Happy Teachers' Day

2008-08-31T12:12:00.001+08:00

Hi all...

Just realized that my blog was dying... lol... okay firstly a very Happy Teachers' Day to all Teachers... love u guys!

Not very long ago, i rememer myself organizing Teachers day and this time round i was part of the crowd watching the concert. Kudoz to all who have spent your blood and sweat to make this event a success and especially the SCTA's. After the event i was just too sad and didnt really get to see any teachers. They were far too busy and tired. I placed the cards i did for them in their pigeon holes and made my way to Clementi Town Secondary - the place where i have spent 5 years of my life.

I just couldn't describe the happiness in me when i stepped into CTSS... i felt so good abt it. Managed to see quite a number of teachers and they were so excited and thankful. Gosh i just missed them so much. Mdm Yaheedah, Ms Sharmini, Mrs Wang, Mr Chng, Mrs Rajah, Mrs Sam are the few whom i managed to see... still so strong and cute! got to meet up with some of my classmates and juniors. they are still as funny and naughty.

and yes i also send Mrs Ali, Mrs Abdul and Mrs Lim a teachers' day card to their house. lol... they left school but i still felt that i should somehow send them the gratitute even though i cant meet them up. They will most likely get it by monday... hope they are suprised. haha...

Mr Koh messaged yesterday... very sweet of him to thank me for the card... but Mr koh you really deserve it for all that u have done for me... Thank u so much for the message i feel appreciated. :)

At this moment i will also like to thank all the teachers who have worked very hard for me... some cared more for us than u did for ur childrens. it is really very very nice of u and i pray that god blesses you with more energy and strenght to guide and inspire more students just like what u have done for me... I will always remember what u have done for me. Thank you Teachers i can never say this enough! :)

complaining :(

2008-08-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

I am so stressed and tired with the amount of homework and revision i have to do... i know that all 'A' Level students are going thru the same shit as as me... so i shall not complain further. prelims in 3 weeks :( my life is like circulating around exam fever... gosh! i wonder when this will be over...

I believe that i will get over with this soon... last year this period i remember i was stressed to the max wif the responsibility of leadign the Teacher's Day Committee... i seriously miss it so much.. haha... i rather do that than studying! lol...

Council bbq :)

2008-08-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

Hi people...

Nothing much to update so here comes some photos of our council bbq at Sembawang park! it was one of the memorable council event we had...thnx a lot to all those who came down to make this event a memorable one and not forgetting Zhi Lun and Wilfred who organized it... thank u so much!

character, a declining resource

2008-08-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

This is one of the best essays on character, I've read in a long time. Doug Manning On Character.
I love character. Character is who you are when no one is looking. Character is who you are with people who can't give you anything. Character is who you are when things don't go your way. True character is fearlessly being who you are. True character is stepping up when stepping up is required.
Character defines the quality of life you get to experience. It differentiates the great from the good, the interesting from the humdrum, the resilient from the fragile.
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True character does not develop in a cave. It unfolds in the full flow of life, when things are challenging. You cannot become a character by wishing it so. Character comes from choosing the uphill climb. You cannot develop true character until you take complete responsibility for your own life.

Read how he compares the character of his parents' generation, his generation and his children's generation.

HT to Jeremy who asks whether character is a resource in decline in these days of material abundance, rising expectations and too few challenges.

Your personal character is your primary asset, one that you build up over time and a resource that you can draw upon in difficult times and can never use up though you can lose it with a single disgraceful act. It may be the only guarantee of everlasting happiness said Seneca, the stoic.

In the not so distant past, in our private schools and liberal arts colleges, the building of character was considered as important as the acquisition of knowledge. Heraclitus said, "Character is destiny, " and Booker T. Washington said, "Character is power". Character is formed in the torrent of life.Could it be that we have to be knocked down and beaten up by life before we can start Learning from Life?

“How many gifts do we have, buried under a hardened armor, awaiting the gracious trauma of a shattered shell?" the Doctor asks. And Kahil Gibran tells us Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain.

Exodus...

2008-08-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

At times we feel low, sad, depressed and at times we feel happy, excited, cheerful...but human nature is such that we can willigly accept our happy moments but unwillingly the sad ones. We should learn how to accept both type of feelings so that we can handle life life in ease. Though things like breaking up, arguments with friends, missing ur loved ones and scoring badly can bring about sorrow and disappointment, we should learn how to overcome ite and move on with life...

well i am posting this becoz recently i am faced lots of challenges emotionally and i would say that it has transformed me to be a stronger and a more determined person in life. Stepping down from council, disaggrement with classmate, stress with result and more homework... I have actually learnt how to stop worrying about such issues by prioritising... knowing that 'A' level is the most important thing in my life i ave avoided all the disturbing aspects of my life.. even my friends... I have actually stopped talking with some of my friends not becoz they are my enemy now but becoz i dont want them to be my close freinds anymore coz i fell that i cant trust them any longer... well it i believe that time wil cure it and by that time i wonder whether i will still be in touch with them... (for those who dun understand what i am talking abt, dun bother me... this is only meant for some people)

Moving on, so i just want the people surrounding me to know that life is not only about happiness, success and achievements but also about sadness, failing and disappointments which is the only tool to shape a person and bring u closer to god... so dun give up and believe in allah the only one who will be there to help us no matter what. I have experienced it :)

Happy Birthday Singapore...

2008-08-09T22:09:00.000+08:00

Singaporeans should be very proud celebrating the nations birthday today! The joyous moments of watching the NDP and rushing through the goodie bag is remarkable... Most importantly, this is the season where i can get a lot of holidays for me to catch up wif studies and get a goooooood rest! haha :P

Though it is never new for Singaporeans to blame the government for the rising price of commodities and utilities we always compete for the ndp tickets so as to celebrate our Nations birthday as one. At times, this can influence people to sell the tickets at a very high price especially on online sites such as e-bay. Certainly, it shows how desperate some people can be in watching the show and how self-centered others can be... (those selling the tickets for a very high price and those getting the tickets again and again)
I personally feel that those who have already seen the parade more than enough times should stop applying for the tickets and give others a chance. there are many people out there who are disappointed very year.. lets give them a chance k? i know u will oz u r Singaporeans

Now, it is my duty to appreciate the Singapore government - PAP for moulding Singaporeans to be more ethical, practical, and courteous. Singapore is very famous for holding campaigns whenever it wants to implement something or instill some values in its people.. for e.g. encouraging people to give up seats in public transport, ensuring that the people do not litter, preventing people for growing plants, teaching people to smile more, encouraging people to change the water for plants regularly, etc... these are some of the things the government has taught us through the aid of mass media... Thankfully, Singaporeans have always been very co-operative in following whatever the govt says and hence, Sg has turned to be a more thoughtful and less self-centered place to live in.. so Kudos to all =)

I pray for Singapore's continuous success in whatever it does to be long-lasting and i also wish that it lives with peace, prosperity and harmony...
This is my home...our Singapore!

embracing the moments of silence =)

2008-08-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone...i am finally relieved from most of the heavy load which was on me all this while... PQ, SGC, portfolio which took so much of my time. Next, is Economics and GP test, Investiture China Trip presentation and Aadiperuku... I am so damn tired... After a very long time I managed to catch some time with my Allah... i spoke to him and told him how i felt now such that i have overcome so much in such a short period...

I prayed and asked for peace, silence, serenity, less stress, wishes for all the A level students, Mr Koh to get well soon, My cousin sis Rizwanah to recover soon and lastly my dad to have a wonderful 45th Birthday.

Well here is an update of my Investiture... It took me a very long time to overcome this very sad and empty feeling... stepping down from council is not as easy as stepping up... the emotional stress the whole council went thru can never be described by mere words... we exchanged our feelings thru notes, tears and hugs.. well the footstep of 8th Student Council will not end there.... Mr Koh gave Reco a special gift which I can never forget... it is really a very special note and gift... He requested us not to share it wif anyone so i am not going to...

well... that is not the end... i have lots more to say... haha... Aadiperuku was very fun... it was held on 1st August to celebrate the month of aadi... pictures coming up soon people...

okay now i am quite done with uploading some pictures... i have lots of things to do now... so see u people soon with more updates... k? take care!

moody

2008-07-09T18:38:00.000+08:00

Depression week :(

results not good

stepping down from council in 2 weeks

7 weeks to prelim

very stressed

class still segregated

people around me also going thru hard times

how to survive thru 'A'lvls ???

I dont want to step down...OMG....Mr Koh can i dont step down? is disturbing me a lot....

"Muggers"

2008-06-21T09:56:00.000+08:00

hi people! have been busy with studies this few days as exams are around the corner... in 2days time i will e sitting for my 3rd paper which is Physical Geography... omg it is my weakest subject hope to fair this time round... update of my exam

monday - physical Geog
Tuesday - Economics and tamil language
Thursday - Tamil literature
Friday- Human Geog

and with that i will be done with 1 week holiday! hehe... aniwaes the time for us to step down from council is reallt nearing fast... 23rd July is like 1 mnths and 2days away! sob sob :'(

with regards to exams, i wish all all the best and may god be always wif u... chiayo!

***By the way,for those who have been complaining that i have been mugging: can i know what is ur problem with me mugging? i am not the only one... if u are not than something is really wrong in u...and does it really matters why i am not online? so stop grumbling and mind ur own business please.***

so sorry for my language... but i am really pissed with this irritating people...

Wonderful day in China

2008-06-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hi guys... just returned back from China today... hope u ppl are fine... am so tired slept for so long and still tired am going to sleep soon. i had a new name in China Shen Hong... specially named by Mark our tour guide.

Our first destination was Nanjing... a fast developing city. In Nanjing we went to the massacare centre where more than 300,000 people have been buried during the Japanese occupation. very sad. was also told that the Japanese killed, cooked and ate the women and children.

Next we went to our hotel- it was the hotel where we stayed the longest. after which went for dinner. was so scared off by the lobster they gave ( quite a bad dinner) then went to the Nanjing night market to shop! had fun shopping to the extreme... haha...but we got lost. Didn't know how to og back but we managed to.

the second day we went to ciggeratte factory. Production was very fast and efficient with the high usage of mechanism. however, the numeber of labour used is extremely low. China being popular to have such high number of population should focus in providing the people with as much employment oppt rather than providing its TNCs to maximise their profit. Moreover, the factory follows the division of labour system which might help the industry to improve efficinecy but in macro scale it is a disadvantage for the people working there as they will not be able to learn much and there will not be much of transfer of knowledge.

went for lunch at a fishery restaurant... it was so fun there...it was 5 story high with very nice setting. never seen such places in Singapore before.

After that we went to the Dr Sun Yat Sen Memorial place. it was one of the place where i really nejoyed myself as it was filled with sceneries and pure oxygen. we had to climb 392 steps to get to see his memorial and history.Next, went to a museum where there was exhibits of history of jade, ceramics and silk. quite boring though! next was dinner at the fishery restaurant. then back to Nanjing night market to shop... had to pack our luggage as we had to go to Suzhou the next day.

After about 3hours in the bus we reached Suzhou industrial park. a place where Singapore has invested a lot. For a moment, i thought i was in Singapore. The roads, houses,shops, starbucks, clinics, macdonalds, backery, buildings- all reminded me of home! after interviewing the people working there about the economic activity there we made our way happily to starbucks. at starbucks, i saw a local and assumed that she knows english, so i approached her and introduced myself. suprisingly, she knew english! there came my oppt to interview her... splendid answers to help me in my understanding about the social, economic and cultural impacts of development of suzhou as a industrial park.

As usual dinner and then hotel and then consutaion.

Day 4 passed very fast in Qiong Long Shan National Forest and Suzhou Xishan National Agriculturla Centre... climbing up the forest was exciting esp with cool weather. Initially, i thought itr was a place to relax. it was only then that i realised that there were statues of chinese gos who helps to protect the country from natutal disasters. It was so stress relieving to climb up the mountain and enjoy the nature by myself!

The agrcultural centre was like an amusing park - 4 times larger than the size of Singapore. imagine how big it is! lots of organic plants, flowers, fruits and vegetables. lots of animals also.. i fed the sheeps. haha... so fun!

learning point: China attracts toursits not only via industrial tourism but also through agricultural tourism. to note, they dont only attract tourist from other countries, they also attract tourist from other parts of China such as Shanghai and Beijing. the increasing boom in service sector is a very hot area for many chinese as they have large amount of jobs available in this sector.

dinner and consultation as usual.

Day 5 - check out from 2nd hotel and visited the Zhou Zhuang - UNESCO heritage site. conducted an interview there on how tourism has benefited the people there. mainly neutral answers with some positive ones. had some street shopping there. went to take our lucnh and back in our couch to Hangzhou.

after around 4 hrs journey, we reached our location a tea plantaion site. bought the emperor's tea there. checked into a new hotel... very nice hotel but no privacy as all the rooms were on the same floor - had to maintain silence. night ended with consultation and Ms Leong's advice to take medicine.

Day 6 - check out from 3rd hotel and went to the west lake. took a boat to have a better view and i got to see a large iran family in the boat beside mine. while we had some learning to do in the boat the iranians had a fun time dancing. after which we made our way to Ling Yin temple it had many buddhist carvings and cavrs. Next we made our way to Shanghai a developed city filled with lights and many tall buildings - more than what we have here. checked in into our last hotel. Didnt really like this hotel but had lots of fun here as we spent every of our nights here having party and gossiping. lol...

Da7 - our second last day. went to the coca cola factory. the production line was extremely efficient and fast. again they have the same problem as the ciggeratte factory. they also practice divison of labour. the history of how coca cola established is very interesting.

Next we went to have our lunch near a restaurant at the pearl tower. very excited to go to the pearl tower. they had very tight security. took a lift to 259 storey to have a view of the whole shanghai city from the pearl tower. Shanghai is one of the largest urban area with 28 million people. Then we went to a mueseum in the first floor, which showcased the old shanghai. Ms Nura and myself were really getting crazy and high there as we began to take plenty of photos with the statues and models.

Next, was dinner and then went to Fudan University. Interviews some students esp regarding issues such as Taiwan, Tibet and US. they were quite open minded and had many perspectives and views.

Went back to hotel but this time round was no longer consultation night or party time... it was shopping time at one of the biggest mall near our hotel. however, the stuffs there were far too expensive and were not able to bargain as it was a mall... after a tiring night shopping we made our way to hotel and after a few hours of rest had our party time... hurray!

last day in China/Shanghai - checked out of hotel. we were supposed to go to a church but for some reason we were not allowed to get into it. so instead we went to a nearest park and then to a bund. Had our lunch there and then began our shopping. After around 4 hours of shopping went to tkae cruise. it was so fun in the cruise. lastly took skytrin to airport and that was the end of my trip.

Personal views =)
The experience i had in China can never be forgotten as it is the first country that i have visited without my parents. it was very speacial for me as i am a indian muslim and it is relatively hard for me to survive there. every one there look at you ery wierdly and they always get suprised to see me being so close with my chinese friends. the time spent with my friends - tricia. Yin Lin, Yani, Pei Wen, Alex, Darren, Felicia Ang, Andrew and Cindy was a memorable one. hope that all the things i learn can be shared wif everyone of u guys! take care peeps... would upload the photos soon.. too tired now!

lots of love
Farveen

Exciting and yet a tired and sad week...

2008-06-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hi people! had been so busy this past few weeks... initially was preparing for maths mid-year exam which falled on the 1st week of June holidays... then... fall sick and was drained... later had 2 days to prepare for my China Trip... it is a Humanities Trip... so many things to buy and do... omg! aniwae... back to my Maths paper--> as usual it was very hard but yet doable.. hope t opass this time round.. I would be flying in another 7hrs... I pray to allah for a safe and blessed journey and hope to return back with colurful memories... would update u guys abt the trip once i come back!

Next, i have been very sad this few weeks... firstly becz i had math eexam during holidays and secondly becoz Mr Ed's friend has cancer... i really pray that he gets well soon... My aunt also passed away becoz of cancer but hers was too serious by the time it was identified. so i wish mr Koh's fren wld be fine soon... glad to hear that his first opt is over and doing fine...

I am going to miss all m frens esp Zhong Ri, Seok Hoon, Yan Bing, Priscilla, Wilfred, Yang Yi, Priya and Serene... please take care of your health and study hard for the upcoming exams...

And i al definitely going to miss my family and relatives... may allah be always be with them!

Births and Deaths

2008-05-20T22:27:00.000+08:00

went to visit my darling nephew today! suddenly remembered that i promised to upload his photos so here it comes! hehe...

school was so boring today without GP lesson and Human geog tutorial... gosh! but i had gp consultation with Mr Eddie Koh.. it was very useful! i got to write a better paragraph...

Besides that... today is dull day :(

sad stories from China and myanmmar is really hurting me too much... poor people they have been suffering all the while... more than 34,000 lives lost and more impacts are to come... i seriously wonder how the people who escaped the Earthquakes and cyclones are going to manage the more problems to come... lets all pray for them and do our part by donating as much as we could afford! easy to say but really hard to do :( we have to cope with these problems like how we accept the good things god gives us! may gods blessings be one everyone of us :)

life continues....

Counting down... how can a student pass?

2008-05-14T17:13:00.000+08:00

It's not the fault of student if he/she fails because the year
ONLYhas 365 days...typical academic year for a student:

1. Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
Days left 313.

2. Summer holidays - 50 where weather is very hot and difficult to study.
Days left 263.

3. 8 hours daily sleep - 130 days GONE.
Days left 141.

4. 1 hour for daily playing- (good for health) means 15 days.
Days left 126.

5. 2 hours daily for food & other delicacies (chewing properly & swallowing) - means 30 days. Days left 96.

6. 1 hour for talking (man is a social animal) - means 15 days.
Days left 81.

7. Exam days - per year at least 35 days.
Days left 46.

8. Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days.
Days left 6.

9. For sickness - at least 3 days.
Days left 3.

10. Movies and functions- at least 2 days.
1 day left.11.

That 1 day is your birthday.

How can you study on that day ?!?!?!?!?!

Balance = 0' How can a student pass ?????'

Down the memory lane...

2008-05-11T21:48:00.001+08:00

well.. i just slacked for the 2 days... firstly becoz i am just too tired... becoz of NAPHA and supporting the sport teams... aniwae i have been slacking even now! so i am going to practically be stupid for tommorrow's lesson... have to go down to support the volleyball guys tomolo at 1pm.. haiz...missing lots of lessons again...

Aniwae.. i realised that i have been missing my secondary school friends and classmates alot...especially when i am in the suckiest class of the college... some photographs to share with u my sweet memories...

once more... :(

2008-05-10T13:34:00.000+08:00

hmmm... nothing to blog abt rite now! just feeling emo, depressed, sad and worried... dont really know why but i just hope to recover from this feeling soon... By the way, i would be going for a China trip from June1 - June 9! and my mid year exam period begins from end of this month and would stretch until June! Please do pray for me...for i dont know how well i would be coping up... take care people... i miss everyone of u all...

REALLY TIRED BUT MOTIVATED BY A BOOK :)

2008-05-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

Su Wei's birthday today!!! Celebrated it very well :) again, may god bless her wif gd health, wealth and peace... i realised there are a lot of birthdya wishes for this month... lol :P would post the pictures real soon...

Well to my disappointment, Ms Lee wasn't in school today... so no Physical Geog lesson... so i didn get to learn anything abt Hurricane... make up lecture on Friday

Got to support the netballers tomorrow! hope they do well! it is a crucial match for them! Jia yo PJ netball

By default, i am a usher for college day! got to buy stockings... so sick and tired of being usher actually... fundamentally becoz, i was a usher for pre-u seminar for 2 weeks... and 1 week of rehearsal... last year college day and graduation night.. really bored and tired

My body aches are killing me... i feel so weak and drained... my mum said that i look as if i loss weight... hope i really did... lol... aniwae i seriously hope that some angel from the sky would come down to give me a massage... i dun mind paying any price for that...

I am reading a book titled ' 21 INDISPENSABLE QUALITIES OF A LEADER' by JOHN C.MAXWELL...it is certainly a very gd book... i reading it really slowly so as to absorb the information in it and to actually follow... CHARISMA is one of the qualities a leader shld have and it is not something that u have or don't have but infact a thing which can be developed in time...

To be charismatic:

shld care about the people surrounding him before himself

he shld really enjoy and appreciate life no matter how many problem he has... coz ppl will only be attracted to those who are happy then always depressed and moody!

u shld always have high expectaitions on the people surrounding u... in another words... shld never critique them...

Well from today, i hope to follow these 3 aspects...

Monday Blues...

2008-05-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

Cindy is sick... hope she gets well soon!
Eillie is sick too... get well soon girl :)
Syahirah not in school... i assume she is "sick!" lol...

Econs test was quite okay though i only studied for it the night before... :) Hope Ms Tng doesent gets to read this... orelse she would be mad on me...

NAPHA was so crap... for the first time in life i jumped a distance of 167m for my broad jump... i was extremely happy until i saw my hand at the back... so that was not counted... thnx to me! Managed to get a B for Sit up and just passed my pull up and sit and reach... FAILED MY shuttle run by 0.6 seconds... :'(

I finally understood what Ms Chew was teaching me for Hypothesis...

Physical Geog was so damn fun as we were watching a video on HURRICANE... It is such a devastating disaster... Really feel sorry for countries such as America, France, Mexico and India who are very prone to this do their their geographical location... would learn more abt it during tommorrow's lecture... so interesting...

Tamil Lit as usually boring and for the first time in this 2 yrs my tamil teacher was waiting for us can... such a miracle... no wonder it rained today! lol

Madina and myself were really enjoying ourselves during GP... lol...we were mesmerised by one new GP teacher in our school... he is so damn handsome can... he practically passed by our class 3 times... so we were so distracted from lesson... haha... and u know what? he is Ms Zaleena's son... so WTH rite??? Haiz nvm... just hope that he doesent gets to see my blog... lol...those pioneers who are reading this u better keep this to urself...

Finally, Madina and myself went back home together... we were gossiping all the way... i felt like a bitch for a moment... i bitched abt 4 ppl... whom i am not suppose to talk abt... i really feel remoseful, guilty and agonised now! well they are my role models... how can i afford to do this... feel so shameful abt my deed... I pray to allah to forgive me for the sin which i did (though knowingly) i would not repeat this again... sorry... really sorry... i don't dare to say this to the 4 of u ... so... :'(

Gonna revise for my Math test - Normal distribution and sampling now... test on Friday... so stressful... and i just realised that i have a compre to do... gosh! thank god i have a free period tomorrow! YIPPIE!

Bye people... wld update u wif more resources some other days.... till then take care and beta don't fall sick... lots of stupid virus up there... eat more vit C and have gd rest and sleep!

POOR CHILDREN...:(

2008-05-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

Hundreds of children, most between the ages of 9 and 16, were sold to factories
in the southern province of Guangdong over the past five years to work as
virtual slave laborers.
children were "sold like cabbages" by their parents
to gangs who in turn sold them off to employment agencies or directly to
factories hundreds of miles from their homes.
The victims were forced to work almost around the clock, beaten, and deprived of pay, nourishment and basic medical care. children from Liangshan earned about as little as 30 cents an hour and were forced to work long hours. One girl named Luo Siqi from Liangshan said she made 50 cents an hour and initially claimed she had come to Dongguan on her own.
When told by police that the money she thought she was sending home
could not have reached her family, she broke down in tears."My father and mother
sold me, I don't want to go back," Luo was quoted as saying.

Poor childrens... in the mist of development i think China has been neglecting its people nad their needs ezpecially the young! it is only when they take care of this young population by feeding them with good education and knowledge that these kids wld grow up and develop the country further! well atleast it is the basic right of every human being to chose to do what he wants... it is certainly unfair for them to be sold by their parents to other...what a selfish parent... so are we now suppose to blame the country or the parents or the companies??? shldnt the companies be aware of the law against using child labour? Moreover most of the companies are MNCs...This has clearly provened that MNCs has no consideration over naything except for money! Wonder how money will ever get you closer to heaven and god... Nevertheless, this is just my personal view feel free to comment abt it!

:'(

Birthday suprises :)

2008-05-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hey today Zhong Ri's birthday! we celebrated Zhong Ri's, Yan Bing's and Priscilla's birhtday at Jurong East Entertainment Centre Long John Silver today! it was a successful event coz we managed to shock ZR, YB and Prissi... haha... hope they liked the presents and suprise. would upload the pictures later!

Today is my sister's birthday also! i bought her a card and earing from minibits! Hope she like it too... may allah bless her wif gd health, wealth and peace!

take care peeps!

Wisdom Quotes...

2008-05-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

Wow... really inspirational quotes yah! hope it motivates u guys :)

happy Birthday to u...

2008-04-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to YAN BING AND PRISCILLA...
They have finally reached 18th... haha.. jk jk... but very nice timing leh.. 1 week before napha u turn 18. lol... aniwae may god bless u wif the best in ur life nad may ur year be sweet, prosperous and happier then before. take care darlings!

Happy Labour Day!!

2008-04-30T23:05:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I would like to wish all those who are working a very happy labour day... coz basically you contribute to the rise in Aggregate demand --> via multipier process the national income and thus the standard of living. therefore, we have been able to achieve higher economic growth yearly... Besides that, i would also like to wish my parents and teachers for always working very hard for me! i really appreciate it especially becoz u dont treat as your work but as your passion, love and want! thank u from the bottom of my heart!

Despite the fact the labout day holiday is only 1 day... i have millions of homework to be accomplished in that 1 day, which is ridiculous.

Read Physical Geography notes
Study For economics test
Do GP essay
Do Tamil essay
Do maths tutorial
Do Economics essay
Study for econs remedial
Do gp comprehension
Do GP remedial homework

That is really a lot! omg :)

reminder to all: I am a HUMAN BEING

PJC Netball rox...

2008-04-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

went to kallang stadium today to support the netball gurls! they were playing against NJC... it was such an exciting game... in the first quater, we were loosing by 9 balls... in the last game we managed to get a tie and in the last 8mins we managed to score 3 more goals than them! it was so great!!! congrats to netball team... some of the ppl whom i knpw include juliet, marlene and valerie... it was a really good game! keep it up and hope that u would do just as well in the next game! council would definitely be there to support u all the way :) there is a rugby and volletball match this Friday hope they would do just as well and make us proud! Jia yo PJ!!!

Elects camp =)

2008-04-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

Elect camp- the last event of council is over! haha... though happy that it ended well... very very sad that we dont have any more events left to accomplish... Night walk was such a dissappointment as it didnt seem to scare much =( Amazing race was damn tiring lah! but after and during amazing race i was very sad coz i scolded my group. I am Extremely sorry Rui Yong, Zhi Jian, Rekah, Masturah and Faith, I did that for ur own good. it was the only way where i can instill discipline in u...For amazing race we went to Limbang Park, Science Centre, Lower Selatar Park, causeway point and back to the college. after that extremely tired and drained out already... after that we had revealing of angel and mortal and then went to eat at magic wok... good place for whole council to seat and eat...lol... and a gd place to "discuss and share" our views... lol... the food was damn delicious also... haha...

well, as a council, we have went thru a lot, cried over issues, debated over it, fought over it and moved on wif it... it has never been easy as ppl expect it to be... being in a best discipline at all times is not easy already, besides that u have to do well academically, maintain good health, be actively invlolved in council events, leave a council legacy, be involved in community services (outside sch) and participate in overseas trips....omg... so many things to do... i am a normal human being 365 days and 24hrs a day is not enough to achieve all... lol yah! but aniwae wif the support of my friends - (Priya, Serene, Cindy, Yan Bing, Zhong Ri, Priscilla, Sabrina, Yang Yi, Wilfred, Bazilah, Tricia, Madinah, Eillie, Syahirah) i have been pulling thru this superfluous life of JC and Council1

I sincerely hope that 9th council would be a great one... but for that they need to brush on their dicipline, teamowrk, communication and respect for others. well with this i am sure 9th council will be just as successful as the 8th. God bless yah!

Higher Education cum Parents meeting day!

2008-04-19T20:03:00.000+08:00

Higher Education day was really good! it enlightened me to the max :) but quite scary also coz i have to score an average of B for all my subjects to enter any course in any University :(
Haiz... how? i am so damn depressed now shut... okay... after which we had parents meeting...
I was extremely motivated by the SMU speaker... some things that he shared with us inlcludes

entry doesent only requires academic qualification
participation in CCA is impt
Participation in other constructive activities outside CCA is also impt
need to score an average of B for all subjects

My teacher placed 3 rules for me to follow from today

Do not hear to songs when studying
Practice more with timing
REDUCE involvement in council

I wish I can end in a peak with a bang!

******I MUST STUDY HARDER******

I miss PRIYA and SERENE

2008-04-15T18:41:00.000+08:00

OMG...i realised i miss my secondary school class and my besties Priya and Serene a lot... Wish i can chill out with them..those wonderful memories are coming back... well, i think i would only get to see them end of this year to celebrate Serene's and Priya's birthday! haha... maybe i should call for a class chalet again!

Yeah! i am done with my homeworks which i was complaining about some hours ago.. haha... silly me!

Checked my email just now... and received a list of 30+ names who are selected into the 9th Student Council! haha...all the best to them... may their life in 9th Council be a blessed one filled with experience and memories!

I want to see my darlings!

warm welcome to the newborn...

2008-04-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

Well today is a very special day for my family coz we have a new member joining our happy family! yeah! haha... he was so cute and adorable... looks just like my sister! I was in the hospital waiting for my sister to deliver for almost more than 12hrs... cldn't even get to school today. so obviously i was absent to school today... haha... i can 4get all my sad stories when i look at that innocent face. haiz...

i have yet to do any of my homework...o406r-t9yjdfkgf5756f

gosh... i wonder how am i going to overcome this very hard moments of my life! it is filled with delimmas and obstacles. i want to stay with my "son" and yet go to school... how can that be possile? Errr...

Aniwaes... tomorrow is e-learning day! thanks to SARs! lol... i am glad that we don't have to sumit any of our homework via that portal thingy! it sxxxx.

Lets look at the long list of homework that i have to accompalish my wednesday!

maths tutorial

GP - online forum reply and quiz

Human Geography - Preparation for Lect 4 and online assignment and complete tutorial

Phsical Geography- Online essay, read lecture 5 and 6 of Atmo

Economics - Online essay

Tamil Literature - short-write up on different dance and 2 essays

Haiz... so many things to do in 24hrs - 8hrs to sleep, 1hr to take get ready, 3 hrs to eat and 2 hrs to rest. left with 11 hrs... wth...

Going to zzzzZZZZ... haha

EMO...

2008-04-12T19:18:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone...

I wasnt in a good mood this week coz of many reasons... don't wish to state them here... anyway i was labeled by one person as "sensitive" yesterday... sob sob :(
Am i really sensitive? i think i am also... lol... yah! coz my mum also says that i am sensitive... i would try my best to change...

Got a 'B' for my Project work... am i suppose to be happy or sad?

i changed my blog skin today! haha...does it looks better? lol...

I want to buy a new bag!

i realised i am very random...

I dont want to continue coz i am emoing... byes

~Beautiful Mosque around the world~

2008-04-05T13:03:00.000+08:00

Beautiful Mosques around the world...

Italy

Kenya

Morocco

Philipine

Turkey

Ameen...

2008-04-05T12:55:00.000+08:00

When there is a single star in the sky... Straightaway the path of forgiveness will close...

writing in the Quran will vanish,

sun will lower itself with the earth..
Prophet Muhammad (saw) said 'who ever Delivers this news to someone else I will on the day of judgement make him a place in paradise' ameen. Please pass this to every Muslim you know. Ameen...!

Boring Life :(

2008-04-05T11:50:00.000+08:00

Hi people! seems like i didnt blog for 2 days - very busy sleeping... lol :P aniwaes... finally back to weekend... got to catch up wif physial Geog- atmo lect 4 - 6, GP - politics, maths - log revision.. so boring...

PE sux coz Mr Yap made us do stupid things with that heavy dumbells... irritaing... my body has been aching since then... errr...i can't concentrate :(

Lina's bithday today! Hope that allah bless her with good health,wealth and lots of energy to do well in 'A' levels.

Counting down the number of days for 'A' levels... approximately 30 weeks... gosh! why is time passing so fast!

I realised that i have always blogging about school, council and homework.. lol... i wld try to blog abt something more interesting in the near future! :)

yippie!

2008-04-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

Hey! patio opening ceremony is over and yeah we can begin to use the patio... haha!

aniwae that is not my point for today!

Mrs tan the princi showed us the analysis of results for 'A' levels and as well as for our common test... seems like we are very very far from our goals... so lets work harder PJ...

Having a half day on friday! but what is the point? my schools ends at 12:30pm. so crap...

I havent started studying for today... so i am ending here for now. shall continue more tomorrow :), I would like to thank all my besties in PJC for always supporting and motivating whenever i am down. thanks a lot people.

Elections :)

2008-04-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

As i see more of elections posters up on the wall...
it reminds me clearly of my elections period...
the posters, bookmarks, rallying,question and answer

Feshmen for refreshment

within a blink of m eye...

my council days are coming to and end soon

I know i have put in my best

fullfilled my promises to the college
served the college

made a difference to the college

I would really miss

the days where we are the first to step in and the last to leave

the day where you have to rush through out the whole day

the days where you have to submit one document after another

the days where you have to check your email onece an hour

the days where we did the video for hours without sleeping
the days where we didnt sleep at all

the days where we were excited about the event coming the next day

the days when we were rehearsing

the days where we had never ending meeting

the days where we get into each others nerves

the day where we had to sleep in one room together

the days where we never stopped gossiping

the days where we cried together

the days where we danced and cheered together

the days where we loved and hugged each other

Dearest Council,

Thank you very much for providing me with such unforgettable memories, which will always be indelibly attached to my heart no matter how far i go! is because of council that i love PJC...
I certainly agree that i wasnt a perfect person when i stepped into council... i have made lots of mistakes... but i have learnt a lot from them.

my council attachees and my Scap attachees would be rallying tomorrow... i wish them all the very best to do their very best dring the rally... may god always be wif them and provide them with lots of confidence to get through this period and get elected into the 9th...

Cheers

Farveen

Tiring but yet a happy day :)

2008-03-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hi people... wonder how many of u are reading the nonscence i have been posting.. lol... aniwaes
today was so tiring after the super tiring P.E lesson. after which got back my geography results which was heart-breaking coz i passed my human and failed my physical, thus i got a sub-pass...

The only thing which made me feel damn happy is PATIO... the furniture are up and it looks so cozy and comfortable... can't wait for the official opening ceremony which is wednesday :) yeah! then you should know where you can find me everyday...

And u know what i completed my maths tutorial for the first time in my life... i am very proud of myself.. haha... partly because it was quite easy and now i am going to study for GP - politics and then go through my pathetic physical geog paper...

And before i forget, Zhong Ri was so sad toady... dunnoe why! is so wiered to see his emo and sad... hope he gets back to his usual highness tomorrow... and hope that he does for his spa on wednesday... my Cindy is not feeling well also... omg... my friends are all getting weaker and weaker... i guess it is attributed by common test... hope that they get well soon also.

Mr Koh and Ms Prabha went to purchase more furniture from ikea today... Mr Koh asked me whether i could follow them coz it is a council project... but i had to mug... and i was very touched by Mr Darren Tan for asking me whether i am coping with studies... wished that i had given u an optimistic answer...

Lastly, i messaged Mr Eugene Tan- secondary school english teacher today. coz my friend told me that he is promoted to be the HOD of english! i am extremely proud to be his student. really! he is so young and yet such a wonderful achievment... i envy him.. actualli senvying him since Sec 3...wish i can be just like him... i would try my very best...

So many things happened in a day! haha :) I AM GOING TO STUDY NOW... bye and hope to see you again tomorrow...

Signing off
Farveen

Leadership...

2008-03-29T17:48:00.000+08:00

Class management head, discipline head, subject head and being in the exco committee in secondary school...Student Councilor, OGL and a mentor, in PJC...Publicity secretary in Youth Executive Committee
After orientation 2, Mr Eddie Koh gave us questions to ponder and write an essay about. Here is how the question goes - Leadership - what is means to me?

After much thought, i believe that leading is about serving. being a management and discipline head i help to run the class in a smooth and orderly manner. Being a subject head i help my classmates in handing in their homeworks on time and etc.. all leadership positions requires dedication, passion, love, sacrifice, and service.

After Joining 8th council i truly identified my passion to serve and learn. after completing my role as an orientation group leader. i forged bond with my og. they are such a nice lot. serving them was certainly a pleasure. All the hardwork that was put in to make Orientation a success was compensated by the pleasure gained from seeing them bond as one pioneer family.

and yea! look at my dearest family members... enjoying themselves...

lol... we are just too high... it is usual for all pioneers to be high when they here the mass,fun and cute dance songs :P

infinity rox! haha:)

Nevertheless., leadership is not only about serving but also learning from others. For e.g. during orientation, Mr Koh identified a few students who had shown leadership qualities such as tucking in their shirt..etc this are some of the small qualities that i have learnt from others.

Next, as a leader it is important to constantly to encourage and be a moral support to the the people surrounding you. Esp during O2... when for eg izzati my clan master was feeling exteremely depressed due to the "enthusiasm" shown by our clan. upon looking at her moody face a lot of us when to boost her with our moral support . At that moment, i saw lots of new leaders.

In conclusion, leadership to me is about, serving with passion, sacrificing, loving, supporting and learning!

Chilling out...

2008-03-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

After elections meeting... myself and Sabrina chilled out at Lot 1...ate at food culture... yummy yummy... haha...after which went shopping. Shared lots of my personal issues wif sab... interesting issues ah? haha... aniwaes then she went looking for a nice rubber band for me... so touched. In the end, we each bought the same rubber band. The funniest moment was when we changed the colours of the rubber band and the counter lady realised it and changed it back... lol... such a vigilant lady. :(

Yea one more very interesting issue, me and sabrina saw leasbians in the bus...disguting.... and we were carried away... talking more about leasbians and gays... haha.. and this brings me to GP! SHOULD SUCH RELATIONSHIPS BE ALLOWED IN SINGAPORE?

well, i certainly think not. Firstly, because it reduces the already reducing population growth which is not what the govt wants. Next, where will our culture and tradition would end up with such disgusting relationships? Thirdly, are we prepared to change the definition of family in the dictionary? wonder what is happening to character development, culture and tradition!!!

Results...

2008-03-29T17:08:00.000+08:00

Got back 4 papers... GP, maths, Tamil Lit and Economics. All done very badly :( haiz... don't exactly know what i am sujpposed to do now... praying very hard not to see the princi... omg...

My horrible results makes me ponder over my abilities! am i prepared for the 'A' levels which is coming in another 7months time? can i handle the stress? will i put in more effort? will i feel less tired? hmm... answers seems to be very optimistic... hope that i would get somewhere in UNI in a years time.

I Love Patio...

2008-03-29T16:47:00.000+08:00

Hi peopel!

It's been a long time since i updated my blog...

Completition of patio project make me extremely happy! The 8th Student Council legacy is finally done! Reco went through a long way to achieve this. We had to do a proposal, after which prepare a powerpoint slide with some content and see Mrs Tan - princi, prayed very hard that she appproves it, went shopping with Mr Eddie Koh - Reco teacher in-charge, bought furnitures, prepare for mural wall competiton, paint the wall, prepare for opening ceremony...etc omg... that is a lot! hahaha...

Seriously hope that the college would make good use of the patio and appreciate the 8th council. On that note i would like to thank Zhong Ri, Yan Bing, Priscila, Seow Huan, Sabrina, cindy, rest of reco and all the others who have helped us to paint the wall! Thank You very much :)

I LOVE PATIO!

Last few moments

2008-03-23T13:16:00.000+08:00

Studying for my last paper-tamil literature. No mood but just forccing myself to study... this few days has been extremely tiring! my aunt passed away on the 14th of march, followed by that prayers everyday...came back at 12.30am yesterday. haiz... hope that my aunt is peace.

I realised how hard death is after seeing the process of her death. disease after diseases and yet she was so happy. lets all pray to the all mighty allah and hope that our death would be a peaceful one.
Time to get back to my studies. see ya soon :)

NiNtEeN...

2008-03-20T00:31:00.001+08:00

Birthday celebration at seoul garden with my 3 besties...
Happiest moment of my life
Surrounded by gusto

thanks ppl

as i get older
more responsiblities to take over
facing the reality...

First lap...

2008-03-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

Common test - a test of my ability?
Not very prepared...
filled with bitter pill
sense of failure and dissatisfication

well, now i know where i stand
time to build my confidence
and work harder!